[QUOTE=DirkDingy]For the record: I think physical appearance, money, and especially wealth (because you grandpa earned it, not you) are shallow and imperfect indicators of success and happiness.
The girl that I love and think about every day is a Moldovan of average looks, no higher education, and is poor. She didn't care about big bucks or running off to America, only to find a decent person that would respect, love, and take care of her.
But I blew it big time and will likely have to go through my life without my soulmate because of my barbaric behaivor a few years ago.
JMHO[/QUOTE]I would say she couldn't have been your "True" soulmate or you would not have messed it up. And if you did and you two were truely soulmates, no matter what you did, she would take you back.
We all have that girl we like to think back to, the ones we fucked up with and imagine that it would have been great "Only if".
Well most of the time those "Only if" turn out not to be what you/we imagine them to be. As time goes by you remember only the good times and erase whatever it was that made you mess it up in the first place.
You never know how the relationship might have changed over the years. Everyone in those first years swear they have met their Soul Mate. Then marry to only find out 5, 10, sometimes 20 years down the road. They no longer can be around that so called "Soul mate".
I alway say if it was meant to be. Then it WILL be. Otherwise something was missing.
Not trying to argue. Just giving a thought to consider.
Thatguy