Colonel Kurtz and safe navigation
Some excellent insights here. I lack the sophisticated erudition of some here, but know enough history to make what I hope is useful.
Taking the analogy further, compare Colonel Kilgore to Colonel Kurtz and ask who is more insane. The comparative madness is a very old narrative, such as Kesey "one Flew Over the Cuckooos Nest". The same questioning of "reality" and self is an age old question.
In this matter, the conventionality lies between the implied obligations of reproduction of economic units in a nuclear family modern world says is the primary or sole repository of emotional or social validation connection. Other societies place platonic emotional connection far higher, and distinguish sex from emotional needs. Many male only groups have and will continue to supply this need, and not a few wives get jealous their meal ticket is not 100% co-dependent. Women have the equivalent, and are probably better at it than us. Many people love their pets which is considered acceptable. The romantic single point of emotional support failure is neither a necessary of sufficient part of a happy life. Poverty and illness can and does regularly shatter such state sponsored arrangements. Relationships are fragile. In engineering, system redundancy is prized as the answer to mean time between failure (MTBF). We have two kidneys for a similar reason.
The analogy with Epstein or McAfee, or the many suicides in Thailand is misleading. The question is whether unlimited P4 P is inherently self-destructive; and whether we, as mongers, are lost in the jungle. If a fellow lives only for fucking and alcohol and is otherwise idle, meaning not developing his mind / skills or meaningful social connection, then yes, they are at high risk of being a Kurtz. Solitary confinement specifically targets the need to bond and interaction. Jail removes sex, also seen as punishment. We also have a bunch of brain chemicals and patterns of reward that we can re-train and not be slaves to.
In reality, the numerous song / poem / story genre "I cannot live without you" is really about a weak sense of self, lack of identity, lack of self actualization and lack of having a platonic group of others, if you like, back up. The error is conflating sex with the internal basket of a strong self and a bunch of good, trusted friends. P4 P is not the problem per se. It starts with self. Far from being lost in the jungle, it might be that the clearly intelligent and productive dezinens of sub-group have evolved. It is conventional society that is the demonstrable jungle. Kurtz realized the truth. As the script said, "he broke from society and then broke from himself". His weakness was emotional loneliness.
The best way of not getting lost is a not flying beyond core skill level, flight plan, destination, situational awareness, navigation, adequate fuel and alternative landing spots if en route weather changes. Check and re-check assumptions. It's called cognitive flexibility and resilience. The military tests this for for officers and hones these traits. If you need drugs or alcohol to get by on a basis, something is wrong. If you need a person as a prop and will fall over without them, you also lack airworthiness. If you have too much time on your hands without evolving or lack the laughter and company of like minded folks, also a problem. Alcohol, over eating, sex, distractions etc are all escapes from a deeper madness. Turn the whole thing around and look to causes. P4P is not mad any more than a fine meal. All in balance. Adjust the trim. Allow for drift and correct course. The seven deadly sins remains a good plan of keeping default human sloth in check.
If your life is in order, you have enough to live on without working, and you have a few really good, trusted friends (as in trusted with money and secrets and accepting you as who you really are) you are already a winner. P4 P is icing on the cake, nothing to worry about *IF* the aircraft is in good repair and flown within its limits and pilot skill. It is residual guilt of having run away from the plantation and living a life very few men get to enjoy. The people here for the most part are people I'd be very happy to have for company; intelligent, highly aware, articulate, educated and from what I can see have a healthy deprecation of hubris.
Careful What You Wish For
[QUOTE=Anaggie;2574283]Nice report!!
I have yet to find a squirter and was wondering if you could maybe share that contact for my next trip to Rio. I don't think you can PM yet so maybe if you get enough posts, you could drop me a PM.
Thanks.[/QUOTE]Once dated a woman who drenched the bed. No, it is not urine. The first time it was WTF! After that it was, how about we do it on the floor?
Hotel Astoria Palace Update!! My problem!
First let me say I put the blame on my shoulders for not being specific enough when I went on a tour of the hotel. During the tour, the manager asked if I would be staying alone and I said yes, but I will have female friends come to visit me, he replied that it wouldn't be a problem as long as I registered as 2 people. Well. That wasn't exactly the case.
The hotel is nice and I love the view from the 11th floor but there is my HUGE problem with the hotel. I had a girl come visit me last night for a couple of hours and the night manager asked if she was staying the night because if she was, I would have to pay a charge! I was like WTF? A charge for what? I registered as 2 people.
So this morning, I went and spoke to the manager who is also the one who showed me the hotel and asked what the issue was. Apparently, you can have guest come to see you during the day, but I can only have ONE female stay the night for free. If I change females, then I have to pay 85 fucking reais per person! I never had to deal with this before in a hotel, where I could only have one guest registered.
I am happy that I only payed for 1 week, so I will switch hotels next week and stay at IBIS. I wish the manager had been more specific and explained that I couldn't change females every night because I wouldn't be staying here. I know 85 reais is not a lot of money but it adds up over 3 weeks and it the point that why register as 2 people if I still have to pay a charge when I have a female over. In addition, i now have to add basically another 100 reais to what ever i negotiate with the female. Complete bullshit!
I will start calling girls over in the afternoon and I hope there is no fucking games with management when I do that!