Trip Report, Monday, Day 8, August 26
Trip Report, Monday, Day 8, August 25.
Next morning we sleep until after 10:30. The friend got up and seems in good spirits and gets ready for work. (Did I mention they work in the same bar?) Secret was going to BF herself as she had a bad headache. How the friend could function I do not know. But now Secret had Monday off. A bit later, lying in bed, Secret get suddenly horny and directs my hand to her Vag. I had already gotten dressed thinking I was going to leave earlier, so I see where this is now going and I take the shorts off then we face each other on our sides and we start to have sex. I end up on top and she seems to want to really come as she is now bucking me while I remain motionless. Between that and me thrusting in several sets, she has a mild O and waited for me to have mine. I get close but then I get analytical about what is happening. Should I really be getting emotional with her like this? I had just broken up with her, I thought, and now I am in her bed in her apartment banging her?? So, bummer, I can't release. No O for over 3 days now, and we are BB, and I am not releasing. Sigh. I do think I will be with her that evening so I don't fret too much. But any session could be my last with her, so I do regret not trying a little harder.
We finally get up around 1 PM and says I can go to my hotel and she will come over a little later. Is she planning to get me to pay her BF? Obviously. I could decline and accept the free sex, but I tell her to come on over. She lets me out of the building and I find a motorbike taxi to take me back, but I go to Subway for breakfast / lunch. She texts me to say she will be at my place at 3 PM. OK.
She arrives and it still hungover and wants to continue sleeping. Well, ok, and I put her to bed and massage her temples, which she like, for a while, and as I am writing these words she is 8 feet from me sleeping, or resting anyway.
She wakes after 5 PM and we go to a Japanese place with the moving food line at CF for dinner. I am coming to terms with the ultimate disposition of our relationship but trying to enjoy the time we have left. I am obviously not banging many girls this trip, but the times with Secret are more than some random encounters with other BGs that leave with me frustrated. We walk on the beach holding hands and I know we are all but over, and this will all be ending in a few days as I have already made plans to leave Friday, but I just try to live in the moment.
Back at the hotel I apologize for being so boring and all, and decided we should go see a show tomorrow, and I get tickets for KAAN. She likes that, so we prepare to sleep and, again, I cannot come with her. However, at 5 AM I awake horny and I start to touch her and after I go down on her she gets wet and allows me to enter her, and I do release. This will be my last O with her.
Next morning she leaves around 10 AM to go back to her place to clean up. I will pick her up at the bar later to attend the KAAN shown.
Sorry, no mongering again today folks.
Trip Report, Tuesday, Day 9, August 27
Trip Report, Tuesday, Day 9, August 27.
She texted me late morning saying she wanted to be with me but I had to go to the bar to pay the fine. She said she happy to see me smile and that she acted badly, after the drunken episode. I apologized for being boring, then she said she was never bored with me. Well, yeah. I am bored with me. I said I was old and she said I always looked cute to her. She sent me picture of the greeting cards with the messages I wrote for the flowers I had sent. I had just sent a text where I laughed and said that she rejected my love so she no longer has to lie, which referred to the cute comment. She did not like what I said and was saying "good bye and thank you" if I thought she was lying. I said no, it was a joke (well.) related to the cute comment, not the notes so she forgave. I said how appreciative I was she kept the cards. We set plans to see Kaan tonight and, and at 12:40 PM she was at the bar and was ready for me to get her. So, I guess she would rather be bored with me making money than bored at the bar hoing for lady drinks.
However, she was late arriving at the bar and I arrived early, so I had to wait on her. The club was not officially open but some of the girls were down, including the roommate, the mamsan and a few other girls. We talked a little about Secret, and I learned some things and confirmed some things. First, the roommate did not seem aware that Secret was leaving the end of the month (I later lean it won't be end of the month but a week after, so possibly a language misunderstanding confirmed later on.) The mamasan and friend mentioned the farang, saying he was nice and was able to come by frequently, which was key to her being drawn towards him over me, but they were unaware of any deal she had made with him. But they also said she was not bar fining anyone there. The roomy repeated she talked a lot about me and said both of us were nice men but the other is able to see her more often.
Secret arrived and we still had a very nice day. I took tons of pictures of her on my pro-level camera and she was not ashamed to hold my hold. We got back and quickly had to get ready for Kaan, which was OK. She really liked it, but it was so so for me.
Then we had dinner at CF mall and back to the hotel for bed. She was full of affection but I am starting to notice she isn't much in to kissing. I view kissing as one bit of evidence she loves the man. If you don't like to kiss you, she probably doesn't love you. She loved to cuddle and such, but the no kissing is killing my passion and starts to bother me. She will kiss during intercourse, but nothing but pecks during foreplay.
I have fun spending most of the day with her again, but frustrations are growing.