post from a broken heart (tempoaraly...i hope)
my last trip in bkk was 1st week of april (i go in bkk 4 times a year since 2 years for 1 week stay).
began with some st, going in beergarden (catch bee, see report and pics previous report), get some other girls in the street bar late in the night, going to [url=http://isgprohibitedwords.info?CodeWord=CodeWord901][CodeWord901][/url]’s, sol and eden club.
the 3rd day, i was having a drink in the afternoon outside new wave soi 7, looking at people and girls.
a small group of girls was seating not far from me, eating as usual, making up for the night, etc.
one of them, named may, was looking a lot to me but seemed not very shy but not pushy at all.
she began to speak to me, usual question, what are you doing, how long do you stay, etc.
we decided to go to my room, never asking how long, never speak about money
very good sex party, very nice body, very gfe.
she has 2 girls, she supports only her daughters and sometimes help brother and parents.
i (we? ) fall like in love, we stayed together 6 days till the end of my holidays, we did a lot of things, shopping, bars, pool bar, spice club, restaurants, meeting her friends. etc.
i felt like to be integrated to her life and her surroundings, every girl in soi 7 and soi 5 was knowing me as her farang bf, very kind with me when i was alone (when she was going to see her daughters 2 hours every 2 days).
a very good moment that put me deep in bg lifestyle and way of living. i felt like i was living there for a long time.
i repeat i spend very very good time with her.
if i was not married, i would think of keeping her but.
she is very lucid, saying me she can not wait for me, need to work, doing what she has to do (and what she wants to do, because as she said, it’s not a willing but a need to do what she do), she said always to me she is a bad girl (for me, she is a really good girl but doing a bad girl work);
she well sees the things, knowing living together is impossible, can not wait for me, never speaking about future because she said she can not know how tomorrow will be she said to me we will stay friend and stay in contact and meet each other maybe one day. our life are to different to be together one day
she scared me telling me what kind of guy she met and what some of them were treating her.
at the end, i had to go back home, but we stayed in contact by email, phone or sms about every 2 days till today. sometimes i was regretting to have not done more with other girls and stayed too long and exclusively with her but it was so great with her.
i precise i gave her some money and buy a lot of things but she never ask me any amount, always thanking me a lot when i pay present or give money at the end of my stay.
since my departure (it was just before the last evenements in april), she told me that bkk is very quite, nobody there, nothing to do and. no chance winning money; she said a friend of her wants to go to singapore to try better business, she planned to go there in may 20th.
i try to persuade her to stay in bkk till my next trip (june 15th for 1 week) and go later in singapore if she wants. i promise her to give money but she never ask me for.
last week, she was still in bkk, and doesn’t know when she leave. i have to say i was hoping she stay till my arrival.(selfish)
but today. breakdown! she call me to say she is leaving tonight and she is so sorry not waiting for me. i tried to keep her in bkk but decision was taken and i imagine she called me at the last moment for not changing her mind
i am so sad and disappointed; i am just near to cancel my next trip planned in 2 weeks.
i hope i will have some news of her, she promise me to give me some and call me when she come back in bkk but she thinks it will not be before 1 or 2 months. she said to me to enjoy my next holidays and hope to see me one day.
i have now to make some new plans for my next stay: eden, tulip, sol. and bg like her.
it is too much new to feel good with my next trip but i think i will go there and enjoy bkk life as usual but i am afraid i will always think of her when i will go in places we used to go together.
but, i know when i will be there i will enjoy and maybe if i was with her, i will regret one day to refrain from going with other girl and having good time. maybe i would be cut in 2. now, things are clear, i will have no regret and i hope i will see her in a few months.
i have to say that i hope she will not feel good in singapore and she will come back earlier (when she know i am in bkk and able to help her); but if not, i will have good time.
what do think of that? am i under tg hypnotism? am i a smooth heart? did you live same experience?
i must apology for 2 things:
-english is not my native language so i hope you will understand how i feel.
-very long and maybe not clear post, but i really needed to write this (like a therapy)
fred
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