Here's an example, Paulie
To help you understand why you always pay, one way or another, here's an example.
Let's say you're hanging out in a bar in Laureles, when you're not hitting the El Centro casas. Imagine there's an attractive Venezuelan girl who also frequents the area. In this purely hypothetical situation, you really want to get her between the sheets and you try to find a way in for days. Not only are you putting time and effort into the attempt, you're spending money towards achieving your goal, all to no avail. That little Vennie remains unattainable.
One evening, when she's hanging around with her street rat buddies, you decide to treat them all to pizza. You trade something of value, money, for something of value, pizza. You then offer the pizza, something with value, to everyone. What value do you expect to receive in return? There are 2 things you hope to receive in return. First, you hope your act of generosity will finally get you the pussy you've been working so hard for.
The other thing is gratitude. You want all those street rats to say "thank you mister gringo. " If nobody, except the bartender thanks you, you feel slighted.
Just imagine yourself in that situation. If what you say is true, that the attempt to convince someone to have sex with you isn't an expense, you won't be upset, because the pizza offering waa an altruistic act, with no expectation of compensation. No thanks would be necessary. The simple knowledge that the pizza was enjoyed is all that's needed.
How do you think you would react? Would you shrug it off, because expecting gratitude for acts done without motive is irrational? Or would you lash our in anger because you didn't receive the compensation you wanted?
Clearly, yelling at a bunch of ungrateful street rats is a bad idea. But what if there is someone else? Someone far enough away and nice enough nor to slap some sense into you? If, hypothetically, that person pointed out gratitude from a bunch of punks was unlikely, would you take out your anger on him?
It's my belief, if such an unlikely scenario occurred, you would react with anger, taking out your frustration on anyone who crossed you. What's your opinion?